Things are better today, except for my electric bill of $198. Ugh.
I walked my aunt’s dog for 20 min this morning, and then used her stationary bike for 15 min while doing laundry. Then I met up with my workout buddy at L.A. Fitness. One of the trainers worked with us because he was bored, lol. He worked with us the other day too. He killed our legs. He likes to be “mean,” such as joking he should be eating a donut while making us do lunges. I’m so grateful that he worked with us though. I’m sure my legs will be sore tomorrow. It was a very quick leg workout, but it was tiring. Then my buddy and I walked on the treadmill for 20 min, biked for 20 min, and practiced making baskets for awhile on the basketball court. It’s easy to do all that stuff when there’s someone to talk to. Our gym is having a free throw contest tomorrow afternoon and we figured we might as well try to win the prizes. She played basketball in HS so she has a better chance. We are getting there an hour before to practice our shots. Lol.
Now I’m just sitting at home with nothing to do. I guess I can read and just play around online. I was up til 3 a.m. last night just playing around online. I hadn’t done that in a very long time. I talked to my best girl friend online last night and it made me miss Oklahoma. It does suck being away from friends. I don’t have many friends here. It’s hard to meet people when you’re very shy at first. I really like living here, but last night, I wanted to be back in Oklahoma so I could just hang out with people. My boyfriend is great, but he doesn’t like going anywhere. He just likes to hang out at home. I really miss times in which I would just drive around with someone after dark on country roads “looking for ghosts” and sometimes smoking a cigar or drinking an Icee. I had some great conversations doing that. Life feels boring right now. I know, I was just in Austin last weekend. But the people I was with didn’t enjoy going around and seeing new things. I love them, but they just don’t like that stuff. I guess I miss being around people who want to do things. My great friend at work loves doing stuff – she’s in India right now – but when she’s finally in town, she’s tired. She travels a lot for work and visiting her boyfriend in L.A.
I shouldn’t let myself feel like this. I guess I’m always afraid that I’m wasting my time, that I should be doing something exciting. But you can’t really do anything exciting when it’s tough to pay the bills. I had a lot of fun at the gym though. At least it’s already paid for. I shouldn’t worry so much. My boyfriend says I need to be content with what I have and not always think, “but if I had this and this things would be better.” It’s true. It’s just hard to always be content. He said you have to trick your brain. I don’t know what else I could be doing on a rainy Saturday with no money besides reading or watching stuff on Hulu. I guess it’s fine. At least I have the internet!
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