My weekend in Austin was expensive and a little annoying. But I enjoyed the city.
I had a great time in the gym on Wednesday, but it’s so tough to get myself to the gym. My workout buddy isn’t going today, which makes it very hard to go. My diet has went extremely downhill lately. I miss going to Weight Watchers, but I can’t afford it right now. I’ve mostly been writing down what I eat and it’s all a bunch of crap. One reason why is because I eat when I’m bored. I also don’t like cooking because I have no patience, so I end up eating a lot of processed food. I feel gross right now. I really need to drag myself to the gym.
I went to Social Media Club of Dallas last night. It’s for networking and learning more about using social media in your advertising and marketing plans. I enjoyed the speaker – Chris Brogan. The problem with these events is that I’m painfully shy sometimes. It’s hard for me to just go up to people and start talking. Talking online is easy. This is a whole different challenge. I felt so unhappy after the event for that and other reasons. I feel unhappy today too. My boyfriend said it seems like I’m never content, that I always want something more. Maybe. I hate feeling like this. I feel very displeased with my life and the direction of it. I don’t know what I should do. I mean, I am happy sometimes. I always feel like I could be doing something different and maybe my life would be better because of it. But who knows? It was even hard to fall asleep last night because I felt so unhappy and unsure. I just want to be happy all the time. I don’t know how some people do it. I guess this post really gets at that quarter life crisis feeling. I definitely feel a lot of the what the hell am I doing with my life? I am happy with my job, my boyfriend, my apartment, and my cats. The last three are expensive though. My boyfriend had a good quote last night: “Focus on what you can do, not what you can’t do.”
Maybe working out will make me feel better. I’ve had a bad cold this week, but when I worked out on Wednesday, I felt so much better.
I really don’t want to feel like this. I just want to feel content with life, and quit worrying that I’m missing out on opportunities. My biggest goal in life is to travel the world. It’s slowly happening and it’s expensive. Hopefully my job will send me to some new places as well.
Countries I have visited: Mexico
States I have visited: Oklahoma, Arkansas, Texas, California, Oregon, New York, Nevada, Missouri, Washington D.C. (not exactly a state but oh well) – I didn’t include states I’ve only driven through or that I visited when I was a kid.
This summer, I’m thinking Canada, and if I can’t afford that, then Boston. If I’m extremely broke, I will just visit my family in California. I have free plane tickets to use by August.
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